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Life is complicated.
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Sooo the news is....

I have been back in McAllen for summer for two days already :)
Just waiting for other people to get done. Finals went well, I hope they are going well for everyone else too.

In other news. It looks like I'll be back at Carinos. I was going to work at Santa Ana Wildlife Refuge for the summer...but they told me yesterday I couldn't have the job because my dad is the manager of the Refuge complex. That stinks! Its not like anyone else applied either and I still can't get the job!

Well, now there is a new opening for a job if anyone is interested. You'll be a front desk worker getting 12 something an hour...which is not bad at all.

Well, anyway I can't wait to see all of you.

Love

justine

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Wow. Its amazing that two weeks from today...I will be back in McAllen :)

Must Survive Finals.

Maybe I should take up luck dots again.

Good luck to everybody, hope to see you soon!

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Quite frequently I try to write a journal entry, but never quite succeed. I don't ever know what to say anymore.

I should have lots to say and update about, but I don't. I feel so disconnected from friends in Texas and I feel as if everyone has changed, which is to be expected, but everyone has incomprehensively changed.

I don't know anything about anyone. I read the few entries people put up, but they give me no guide to their life, who they are, who they have come to be.

The people I knew so well, I feel like I don't know them anymore. They don't know me anymore.

I can't imagine college outside of Guilford. What's college like at your campus? What is high school like for all those who are still there? Who are your friends now? What are your newly developed passions? How have YOU changed?

Thats what makes writing entries so hard. Everytime I try to write one, I feel as though nobody would be able to comprehend me and my life unless you talked to me everyday. So many details have slipped by.

I will, however, attempt to paint you some sort of picture:

I'm in my dorm, looking out to big beautiful newly flowered trees. I can literally see the pollen flying through the air practically screaming it is spring time (which in part is bad because I'm allergic to pollen, but anywho...). I just got back from violin rehearsal (yes I'm still playing and it is a wonderful stress reliever.)I do that every Mon, Wed, and Fridays.

Tues and Thurs I teach little kids how to swim. Ages about 3-5. I L-O-V-E them, they always make me smile.

I'm still majoring in math, which I should be done with that major by the end of next year. I may also major in Environmental Studies (which is a great example of a change in me...I've become more aware of the Environment and human impact on it than ever before.)

I love it here, but sometimes I miss my boyfriend, Rick. Whom, I've been dating almost a year now. Crazy how time flies.

Other changes/news people may not know about me:

My interests have changed, a lot.

I don't swim hardly as much anymore. Just once in awhile. (Except when its season of course)

I don't live in the same house in Mcallen anymore, I live close to Sharyland (still mcallen though).

I am newly appointed godmother of my sister Amanda.

Belle is in doggy heaven.

I never wanted to be a math teacher...but now I'm considering it. maybe i'll be the next Mrs. Mendoza/Mr Brashear!

There are so many things, as with everybody, but of course LOTS of things have not changed. I'm still me, but in a very different world.

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So, when is everyone's spring break?
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Chewable Vitamin C is the bomb.
With all this North Carolinian weather changes (In the 20's or colder everyday) I have to take a butt load of pills. So, I'm glad for the one supplement that TASTES SO GOOD & that makes my morning brighter.

So anyway, how is everyone?
I'm busy, busy, busy as usual. I swore to myself over the summer that I wouldn't do what I did in high school and be involved in so many things and end up planning out every second of my life. BUT, old habits die hard...especially ones that make up who you are.

And a big shout for KATE (30th) & TORI (31st)....happy birthday!

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I can never understand what motivates people to do these things. It hits me hard that people feel as though they are racially superior, but what hits me even harder is that people ACT on these thoughts. How could you, beat someone up based on their ethnicity. How could you almost kill someone?

I know racism is something that is apparent all throughout the world. I've seen racist remarks, racist attitudes and the like. BUT, I have never seen some of my classmates get beaten up, called names, and hospitalized.

I know this type of stuff happens all the time through out the world. I just never thought it would happen so close to home. At a quaker school. A good campus and school with great people. There are a few people that put to shame our good name.

http://www.cnn.com/2007/EDUCATION/01/23/guilford.assault.ap/index.html

http://www.newsandrecord.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20070124/NEWSREC0101/70123018

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Sooo...my latest obsession has been Sudoku and Oatmeal. Solving puzzles while lowering my cholestoral!

In other news, two days until I'm home :)

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Christmas break. I need you.

Thanksgiving was fine at the Grandparents and all. Real food, not cafeteria! But I really wish I could have gone home. I miss my family, the doggies, my friends and Rick really bad right now. I have no motivation to do my work at all right now, its like seniorities all over again. 

Well, next semester with a whole bunch of different classes should be interesting. Intro to Sports Management, Zoology, Math, and Historical Perspectives. Sounds good right? Swimming will be winding down too. This weekend I'm heading down to Savannah, Georgia for a meet. Shall be interesting.....

Other than that, college is good. Can't complain. everyone is in stress mode right now. understandable. BUt friends are great for study breaks :)

What i plan to do when I get home and survive finals:

Spend countless hours with Rick.

Actually see all of my friends for the first time in four months.

Eat my momma's cooking.

Pick out colors for my new bedroom :)

Pet my doggies until their legs start shaking furiously.

NO HOMEWORK!

Eat real mexican food.

Enjoy not wearing a coat outside :) However at the expense of beautiful nature.

Mentally prepare myself for my second semester of college. YAY!

PS!!!If you ever get the dorm next to the kitchen. REQUEST A CHANGE ASAP. It sucks!

People bang pots and pans. Talk till wee hours in the morning. Every time some one who doesn't know how to cook burns something, you smell it for a century and a half.

This is an important piece of college advice.

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Everytime I feel like posting I draw a blank. Its so hard to write about college because most of ya'll don't know anybody here or anything about this place.

All I can say is college is going good and it seems to be that way for most people. I'm glad everyone is enjoying there seperate learning institution of choice. I know I am.

Nothing much has been going on out of the ordinary. I'm back to swimming but not nearly to the extent of high school. Its been a little hard adjusting to the fact that I may not reach the times I achieved in high school, but lets face it,  I'm in college for an education. I really don't have the time to dedicate myself like I used to. And thats okay. Thats how it should be. It just was wierd those first few meets. All that work in high school seems to have just seeped out somehow and it took a little while to come to terms with it. I am fine now though.

I'm looking forward to Thanksgiving. My good friend here, Morgan, is going to come with me to my grandparents house in Greenville, NC. I'm so glad someone is going to keep me company. Otherwise, I would probably be bored out of my mind. :/

I'm looking into my classes next semester and I think I have worked out a pretty sweet schedule. It would end up being 18 credits.....this includes Psychology, Historical Perspectives, Music Appreciation, Violin lessons, Foundations of Mathematics, and a Mathematic seminar. If the math seminar doesn't work out I may take a leadership class. Who knows? But the good part of all this is that most days I wont have class after 11:15. Sweetness.

Well, lets see what else is going in on in my life........its kind of chilly here ://
......I have awesome friends.

And I have an awesome boyfriend. 
I'm still dating Rick. I was worried about the long distance thing but here it has been three months and everything is great. There are even advantages of long distance.....not any to overcome the distance....but little things that make it better. Like getting work done and such.

The next time I am coming home is DECEMBER 14. It will be good to see all of ya'lls beautimous faces again.

Well I wish i could leave you something deeply profound to make up for this entry but alas I cannot think of anything.

Adios
Ciao
Love
Justine

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So midterms are over.
Fall Break has arrived.
Guess where I'm going?
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KweenOfEvryThin: BOOOOOO
Valeck25: ahhhhhh
Valeck25: answer the phone
KweenOfEvryThin: i did
Valeck25: wasn't very fast
KweenOfEvryThin: well....sorrrrrrrry
Valeck25: lol
Valeck25: don't let it happen again
KweenOfEvryThin: what happens if i do it again?
Valeck25: STUFF!!!
KweenOfEvryThin: ahhh not the stuff!
KweenOfEvryThin: well stuff you
Valeck25: i'm shocked...how dare you
KweenOfEvryThin: stuff
KweenOfEvryThin: stuff
KweenOfEvryThin: stuff
KweenOfEvryThin: stuff
KweenOfEvryThin: mwhahah
Valeck25: well i never...
KweenOfEvryThin: ohhhhh too much stuff to handle
KweenOfEvryThin: i stuff you
KweenOfEvryThin: do you stuff me?
Valeck25: always
KweenOfEvryThin: you know what...we're in stuff
Valeck25: yes, very much so
KweenOfEvryThin: i can't wait to see you and do stuff
Valeck25: what kind of stuff?
Valeck25: inquiring minds want to know
KweenOfEvryThin: inquiring minds should know what stuff is
Valeck25: they're not very smart. . .they need more info
KweenOfEvryThin:

–noun 1. the material of which anything is made:

KweenOfEvryThin: material of some unspecified kind
Valeck25: too vague.......need more 
KweenOfEvryThin: action or talk of a particular kind:
Valeck25: more specific
KweenOfEvryThin: justine's definition: stuff: noun. secrets i'm keeping from rick
Valeck25: NOOOOOOOO!
KweenOfEvryThin: yesssss
Valeck25: THATS IT!!!
KweenOfEvryThin: whats it?
Valeck25: THAT
KweenOfEvryThin: whats THAT?
Valeck25: it
KweenOfEvryThin: well "that's it" right back at you!
KweenOfEvryThin: No results found for that's it.
Valeck25: i'm too busy missing my girlfriend to look it up
KweenOfEvryThin: i looked it up. there are no results.
KweenOfEvryThin: and i miss you too :-)
Valeck25:
KweenOfEvryThin: yellow smiley is better than blue!
Valeck25: no blue
KweenOfEvryThin: yellow!
Valeck25: BLUE!!!
KweenOfEvryThin: red!
Valeck25: you don't have red
KweenOfEvryThin: are you discrimating smiley's?
Valeck25: no i like all smileys...i just like blue ones more
KweenOfEvryThin: by definition that discrimination
KweenOfEvryThin: my smiley is hurt :-(
Valeck25: i'm sorry
KweenOfEvryThin: :'(look you made him cry
KweenOfEvryThin: but since you said sorry
KweenOfEvryThin: :-)he's happy again

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It really has been a long time since i've updated.

Actually, I was just reading my old entries and I have to say livejournal was so much fun. What happened?

Anyway, I have not updated at all since I have come to Guilford. Which is such a shame! 
Let me tell you, all you prospective college students, you should look into Guilford. 
At first, i was a little nervous....but really this place is like no other.
Everyone gets along with everyone.
And its beautiful in NC.
AND there is always something to do.

Last night, I went to downtown Greensboro and all college students got a free concert of the VIOLENT FEMMES.
There are five schools around the area and there was a massive amount of people showing up whether they liked the music or not. It was crazy.

And me and some of my girlfriends here are gonna go have a girl's night out soon (morgan, mary beth, kali...anyone else who feels like going)...i'm so excited, i think we are gonna check out a latin club for fun :)
I've also been learning to swing dance.
...i joined the OUtdoors Club.....hiking, skiiing, camping, kayaking......the best stuff in the world
Next weekend, I think i'm gonna go to the Greensboro symphony concert ....
there is so much to do here

As for school, my classes are good. I am taking a course called Alternate Realities. Our textbook is Lord of the Rings. That just SCREAMS awesome. I don't like writing, but this class makes writing fun. Its fictional and descriptive. None of that technical stuff fully applies.

Spanish is actually teaching me something. Which is really wierd considering you'd think it be the opposite and I have learned something in South Texas AKA mexico.

English is kicking my butt. But its interesting none the less.

And....math. Calculus 3.....3d stuff.........out of this world.....

i finally got my fridge yesterday. totally in need. i've been living on pb & j.

Lastly, on a different note, my roommate is leaving for two weeks because here mom has cancer....pray for her.

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I'm currently in Nacogdoches on my way to Guilford.
Its wierd to think I'm not gonna be back in Texas for TWO months...and even then, only for a week.
Nacogdoches is where my sister is going to school. She took belle to stay with her at her apartment and now she is living THE LIFE. She's finally the queen dog of the house and I guess it was always her nature to reign.

Well, my roommate finally wrote me back on Myspace. This makes me happy. I have a lot less fears of a TERRIBLE roommate. She was very nice...well it appears that way. Which is a HUGE relief. She is flying up there...which I couldn't do. I have too much stuff that I would want to take AND fitting it all on a plane is not an option. And my dad gets to see the campus...so that is another reason that driving is a plus. Even though the car ride is DEATH itself.

Well, I'll be sure to update more so you guys no what is going on in NC. And all of ya'll better keep me posted.

Love ya ;)

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i'm copying paolo and luke...

Leaderboard
Create your own friendquiz here

(EDIT)
Rick took the one under my name :)

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I like the new bar thingy they have on the top of your friends page. Its convenient.

Its been so crazy around here. We are trying to get out of our house in a week and a half. There is still a lot of packing to do. AND to top it off I'm preparing to go to North Carolina.

But before I leave I want one last girls night and beach trip before the summer. It is a MUST HAVE.

I give my two weeks notice at Carino's today. As much as I whine about working, I love it there. I'm gonna miss it. I'll probably come back to work there next summer.

Oh today is my parents 20th anniversary. Yay. And tomorrow is my mom's birthday~~~~~

COME TO CARINOS!
AND CALL ME TO DO SOMETHING BEFORE I LEAVE!

Current Music:
Ain't No Other Man- X-tina
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List the last 10 people to leave you comments......

1: Joyce
2: Chelsea
3: Martha
4: Paolo
5: Amy S.
6: Chris
7: Elicia
8: Mike
9: Tori
10: Jen

Answer the following questions

How long have you known number 7?: Ermmm a few years at orchestra events...

How did you meet number 3?: none other than swimming when we were little kids and we didn't know what we were getting into

Is number 6 a hottie?: Smokin'!

Are you in love with number 2 ?: I love Chelsea but i'm NOT "in love" with chelsea

Have you ever had sex with number 5?: uhhhhh nooooo

What was your first impression of number 9?: i don't remember....cello girl?

Does number 1 make you smile?: heck yes she does

Is number 8 single?: i don't know...are you?

Have you ever been in a relationship with number 10?: hahahahaha you know jen has a relationship with everyone...what number am I again?

What do you love about number 4's personality?: He never gets mad ;)

Is number 9 a whore?: Any way you look at it. (and btw...i totally didn't plan on you landing on this one...hahah)

Do you like enjoy spending time with number 2?: OF COURSEEEE!

What is number 7's best physical feature?: Her smile

Do you make fun of number 3?: alll the time :)

Does number 6 like music?: yeah...who doesn't

Does number 4 love you?: Deeply.

Do you think that number 1 is strange?: yes... who else would run into walls with me for the heck of it

How tall is number 5?: 5'2..5'3...ishhh

What is an inside joke between you and number 10?: well its not that much of an inside joke...but what the hell. "Is it hot in here or is it just me....No its just jen sitting behind you"

Is number 8 shy or outgoing?: somewhat of both, but mostly shy (i think...correct me if i'm wrong)

Out of your last 10 commenters...

Who makes you laugh the most?: hard to say...maybe martha with her lovely humor

Who is the laziest?: mkay that would be martha again

Who are you closest with?: chelsea

Who have you known the longest?: AMY...i've known her forevvvver

Who have you known for the least amount of time?: Mike

Who is most likely to fall in a hole?: Chelsea for sure

Who is most likely to commit a crime?: i dunno...

Are any of them related to each other?: yes. chelsea and jen are my sisters according to mr. lopez.

Have you personally met all of them?: yeah of course

Does number 2 have a crush on number 6?: i hope not. chelsea has a bf...and that would just be crush cheating

Does number 1 know number 10?: yepp

Who would win tug-o-war if numbers 1-5 compete: paolo maybe? i don't know...

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Sometimes it just feels like too many things.

-----Jill is in the emergency room AGAIN. Hurt herself at work.
-----Amanda was in the emergency room yesterday...prolapsed rectum. (I don't know if thats how you spell it.) She needs surgery, so pray for her. My mom will be gone for two weeks.
-----We have to be out of our house by the end of the month because we sold it. Find rental, pack, all that jazz.

I need a break from emergency rooms.

But other than that, life is good. Just seems like a lothappening at the moment.

PS- If anyone has spare cardboard boxes..we could use them...

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