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Life is complicated.

Sooo the news is....

I have been back in McAllen for summer for two days already :)
Just waiting for other people to get done. Finals went well, I hope they are going well for everyone else too.

In other news. It looks like I'll be back at Carinos. I was going to work at Santa Ana Wildlife Refuge for the summer...but they told me yesterday I couldn't have the job because my dad is the manager of the Refuge complex. That stinks! Its not like anyone else applied either and I still can't get the job!

Well, now there is a new opening for a job if anyone is interested. You'll be a front desk worker getting 12 something an hour...which is not bad at all.

Well, anyway I can't wait to see all of you.

Love

justine

Wow. Its amazing that two weeks from today...I will be back in McAllen :)

Must Survive Finals.

Maybe I should take up luck dots again.

Good luck to everybody, hope to see you soon!

Quite frequently I try to write a journal entry, but never quite succeed. I don't ever know what to say anymore.

I should have lots to say and update about, but I don't. I feel so disconnected from friends in Texas and I feel as if everyone has changed, which is to be expected, but everyone has incomprehensively changed.

I don't know anything about anyone. I read the few entries people put up, but they give me no guide to their life, who they are, who they have come to be.

The people I knew so well, I feel like I don't know them anymore. They don't know me anymore.

I can't imagine college outside of Guilford. What's college like at your campus? What is high school like for all those who are still there? Who are your friends now? What are your newly developed passions? How have YOU changed?

Thats what makes writing entries so hard. Everytime I try to write one, I feel as though nobody would be able to comprehend me and my life unless you talked to me everyday. So many details have slipped by.


I will, however, attempt to paint you some sort of picture:

I'm in my dorm, looking out to big beautiful newly flowered trees. I can literally see the pollen flying through the air practically screaming it is spring time (which in part is bad because I'm allergic to pollen, but anywho...). I just got back from violin rehearsal (yes I'm still playing and it is a wonderful stress reliever.)I do that every Mon, Wed, and Fridays.

Tues and Thurs I teach little kids how to swim. Ages about 3-5. I L-O-V-E them, they always make me smile.

I'm still majoring in math, which I should be done with that major by the end of next year. I may also major in Environmental Studies (which is a great example of a change in me...I've become more aware of the Environment and human impact on it than ever before.)

I love it here, but sometimes I miss my boyfriend, Rick. Whom, I've been dating almost a year now. Crazy how time flies.

Other changes/news people may not know about me:

My interests have changed, a lot.

I don't swim hardly as much anymore. Just once in awhile. (Except when its season of course)

I don't live in the same house in Mcallen anymore, I live close to Sharyland (still mcallen though).

I am newly appointed godmother of my sister Amanda.

Belle is in doggy heaven.

I never wanted to be a math teacher...but now I'm considering it. maybe i'll be the next Mrs. Mendoza/Mr Brashear!

There are so many things, as with everybody, but of course LOTS of things have not changed. I'm still me, but in a very different world.

So, when is everyone's spring break?

Chewable Vitamin C is the bomb.
With all this North Carolinian weather changes (In the 20's or colder everyday) I have to take a butt load of pills. So, I'm glad for the one supplement that TASTES SO GOOD & that makes my morning brighter.

So anyway, how is everyone?
I'm busy, busy, busy as usual. I swore to myself over the summer that I wouldn't do what I did in high school and be involved in so many things and end up planning out every second of my life. BUT, old habits die hard...especially ones that make up who you are.

And a big shout for KATE (30th) & TORI (31st)....happy birthday!

I can never understand what motivates people to do these things. It hits me hard that people feel as though they are racially superior, but what hits me even harder is that people ACT on these thoughts. How could you, beat someone up based on their ethnicity. How could you almost kill someone?

I know racism is something that is apparent all throughout the world. I've seen racist remarks, racist attitudes and the like. BUT, I have never seen some of my classmates get beaten up, called names, and hospitalized.

I know this type of stuff happens all the time through out the world. I just never thought it would happen so close to home. At a quaker school. A good campus and school with great people. There are a few people that put to shame our good name.

http://www.cnn.com/2007/EDUCATION/01/23/guilford.assault.ap/index.html

http://www.newsandrecord.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20070124/NEWSREC0101/70123018

Sooo...my latest obsession has been Sudoku and Oatmeal. Solving puzzles while lowering my cholestoral!

In other news, two days until I'm home :)

Christmas break. I need you.

Thanksgiving was fine at the Grandparents and all. Real food, not cafeteria! But I really wish I could have gone home. I miss my family, the doggies, my friends and Rick really bad right now. I have no motivation to do my work at all right now, its like seniorities all over again. 

Well, next semester with a whole bunch of different classes should be interesting. Intro to Sports Management, Zoology, Math, and Historical Perspectives. Sounds good right? Swimming will be winding down too. This weekend I'm heading down to Savannah, Georgia for a meet. Shall be interesting.....

Other than that, college is good. Can't complain. everyone is in stress mode right now. understandable. BUt friends are great for study breaks :)

What i plan to do when I get home and survive finals:

Spend countless hours with Rick.

Actually see all of my friends for the first time in four months.

Eat my momma's cooking.

Pick out colors for my new bedroom :)

Pet my doggies until their legs start shaking furiously.

NO HOMEWORK!

Eat real mexican food.

Enjoy not wearing a coat outside :) However at the expense of beautiful nature.

Mentally prepare myself for my second semester of college. YAY!

PS!!!If you ever get the dorm next to the kitchen. REQUEST A CHANGE ASAP. It sucks!

People bang pots and pans. Talk till wee hours in the morning. Every time some one who doesn't know how to cook burns something, you smell it for a century and a half.

This is an important piece of college advice.